All that you are

Getting up early on a freezing cloudy morning for work is extremely challenging and the snooze button looks like the most tempting thing that exists..
And then we have Mr Benjamin Franklin who solemnly affirms;
"The early morning has gold in its mouth."

Who would disagree but imagine waking up early on a Sunday morning? It's nothing short of an unintentional irony..is it not the case?

7am reflections: I cocooned myself under the warm quilt, screwed my eyes shut adamant to grab another hour of sleep but a little over five seconds and it had me gasping for air! you know the momentarily drop of oxygen levels in closed dark spaces?! So I had to toss the covers to the side...
Sometimes sleep can be like happiness you know..the more you chase it, the more it eludes you.

The constant tick tick of the clock echoed in the stillness of the room. There was a faint yet very distinct smell of potpourri in the air. The weather outside wasn't too great. And I realised I had been staring at the haphazard traces of lines that seemed to have gotten frozen near the confined edges of my palms.

It's all part of God's Divine will. Period.

An uncontainable host of feelings crashed in around me. I reached for my journal and waited for the thoughts to explain their unannounced visit. The air hung over me with the weight of the unsaid.

I blinked hard and reality resumed.

Have you ever wished for an Undo button in life?

It sounds like an unbelievably tempting idea to entertain but is it worth the person that you have become over all these years? Is it really worth forgetting all that you've known so far and start all over again?

The thought of pushing the undo button grab holds my arm, sternly looks into my eyes and accuses me of being weak and helpless. It wants me to become oblivious to the boldest yet most beautiful ways my life has trended toward. It fools me into buying that a life lived free of mistakes and errors is a life fulfilled. It tries to bribe my mind by negotiating the grip on my life at the cost of letting go of all the details that occurred to design my life the way it is now. It whispers into my ear with a hissing voice.."you lose some you gain some". I let this voice be whisked away by the wind!
But it doesn't give up and continues to distract me from the pounding of my heart filled with gratitude for all the people who travelled miles and miles n' their lives touched mine. This reset button lures me into shutting all the doors that lead me to the path of self discovery where every single step released a new journey in and of itself. It makes me doubt that each turn in our life is guided by His loving hand and at this very breath, we are exactly where we are meant to be. And the people whom we were supposed to meet showed up exactly when we needed them the most. It was meant to be at that very moment when they offered us their hand in comfort in a stormy chapter of our life. And trace your own footprints making their way to the lives of so many people and creating an impact forever. Think about those friends who helped you grow to be your best possible version and your foes who gave you the motivation to exceed your own expectations. And in the end, take a look in the mirror. You'll see the person who has never left your side!
Are you willing to trade all of this for one glittery undo button?

I choose not to press this button for it invalidates my experiences, undermines my strengths and highlights my weaknesses.

I choose to withdraw judgement and look for the magic that exists not outside of me but only within myself..

I choose to keep offering the gift of my presence to all the precious people in my life just like they have always offered theirs.

I choose to be honest with myself for being ungrateful for all the blessings I unknowingly took for granted.

This button is a thief that robs us of our present happiness. It shows up at the door of your heart looking like nothing you've ever seen, entrancing your wits into an impossible dream. Don't be intrigued by its mysterious character. Listen intently to the soft voice guiding you to the light and shift your vision to a larger perspective.
Be grateful for everything that you are. And trust your journey. Say Thankyou to the Almighty.

Swing open the doors of your heart and let the so called tragedy of 'could.have.beens' stomp out of your life. Hear the deadened sound of its footsteps and rejoice. Let it go soo far and away that it never interferes with your reality again.

May God grant us the wisdom to live our life in congruence with His will.

Lo, when you look for God,
God is in the look of your eyes,
in the thought of looking,
nearer to you than your self,
or things that have happened to you..
There's no need to go outside
Be melting snow..
Wash yourself of yourself!

-Rumi